1:58pm:

Is it just me, or is Bon Jovi music the best of all times for its kind!?

 

2:24 pm:

"you think you know me just because you know my name, think you've seen me cos you've seen every line on my face"

 

2:30 pm:

"Why you wanna tell me how to live my life...Who are you to tell me if it's black or while.."

 

2:33 pm:

"When the world gets in my face, I say...'Have A Nice Day' "

"I ain't gonna do what I dont want to...I'm gonna live my life..."

 

6:31pm:

I Am SooooOOO FURIOUS!!

 

6:40pm:

Seriously...I'm so **** Furious...This is Totally Not Fair!

 

6:53pm:

Reckless, Pathetic, Stupid, Ugly & Completely Hilarious!!

 

7:16pm:

....

 

 

....Done With

 

I'm not saying that I like the fact...in fact, of course I hate it...but its a fact afterall & I just have to live with it.

 

I tried to go around it before, I tried different smiles, I tried not to smile, I tried different pauses, I tried different clothes...none seem to work!

I tried to have a nice background....but the pic always appeared as a nice view with me out of place!

 

So, what's frustrating me!? Being at a wedding and the guy with the cam hunting me and zooming on my face and actually focusing there for minutes (grrr). And I'd wanna tell him..."Shhoo..com'on..go away...", but it would all go on tap and make things even worst!

 

It's too embarrassing and it feels like ruinning the wedding video, or the group pic, or even that amazing background view.

 

People sometimes think I'm too arrogant to take a pic with them, or to have them take my pic.

So, those of you who do, please know that I'm not...Know that It's only for your own good...and that if it was the other way around, I would've tortured you with my pics stuck on every corner, I would've been that idiot who sticks her head in evey pic taken, I would've had a pic on facebook instead the rediculas question mark (?), and you know what, probably I wouldn't be hiding behind a monitor doin what I do...

 

 

...Ania

 

 

When I was a kid, I was never really upset when I didn't get something I wanted badly.
I always had the thought of "I'll just get me that when I grow up".

 

I had that vision that when I grow up, I'll have a house full of teddy bears, toys and games of all sort.
I'd have a room with a huge fridge full of ice cream, chocolates & candy bars, another with a big screen TV
and a huge collection of the movies I preferred, and another that is nothing but a big basketball court (H).

 
I've put too much hopes on me as a grown up.

So, yes, I grew up, losing interest in some of those teddy bears I wanted, wanting some more than I used to as a kid, and encoutering more that I've added to my list.

But I only got me a couple or so of those teddy bears.
And it's really hard to get me all the others, I'm somehow failing to, even though I focus on the ones that matter the most.

And it's kind of troubling cos, I've been patient long enough as a kid, if I didn't get them now, they might just go away
or get taken by someone else, or maybe even not fit in with my life later on.

There is no "when I grow up" now. Now, is the time when I start losing those bears I don't get.

 

So, u know...The teddy bears are right there, they just need to be picked up...
And if I have to leap to get to them, I'll do my best to make it one big wide leap...I just hope I don't break anything is the way.

 

...Me

 

 

So,while I was at 3omra, I decided to check out the saudi people & cutlure as well,
From distance of course, it's a bit hard to get used to these fellows.
I'm gonna document my findings in short points (as short as possible) in hope of not making them boring.

 

Finding#1:
In Saudi, there's Mekka & Madina, those are the two most important cities, for all muslims in the world due to their religious importance,
and 4 saudi's, cos they are the only reason muslim tourists go to Saudi.

There are all types of muslims of all nationalities in Mekka & Madina.
There are Sunni, Shi3a, and those who do not know the difference and just try to follow the rules as much as they can (me for one).

But in the end, they're all reading the same book & believing in one God.

Finding#2:
I saw Irani's, Indian's, Turks, Syrians, Arabs of all kinds & I guess some I just couldn't make up where are they from.

 

Irani's will talk to you, you won't understand & reply back saying something that will probably has nothing to do with what has been said to you, and then Irani's will answer back & the conversation goes on...and I tell you, that was weird, why do they think we should understand them!!

I was okay with not understanding Irani's, after all it is a different language...but when Saudi's started talking to me & I mistook them for Irani's & started saying "sorry I don't understand"...that, was embarrassing. But, com'on they have some really weird accent.
Like the guy at burger king. He was telling me something that I couldnt make up, so I just guessed & replied "Yes, I want it taken away", so he shouted back, "Do you want cheese on it or what?".

 

Finding#3:
If you're a woman in saudi, you either have to be very obedient or very patient.
You'll wear nothing but black on the street (And it's weird why they make women wear black in this heat..while men of course wear white or whatever it is they please), cover ur face & speak to no male stranger.

 

Finding#4:
I came across a KFC stand...Divided into two sections...men & women.
But inside the resturant, you will find a section for families to sit together.

 

Finding#5:
I don't know, perhaps maybe it is believed in Saudi that men go to heaven while most women only make it only to hell,
for they leave women only like 1/5 of the space around El Ka3ba El Sharfa to pray while the rest is left for men.

 

And likewise, El Rawda El Sharifa, they open it for women like 5 hours or something a day (3 hours in the early morning & 2 hours in the afternoon heat) & give them a space that is good enough for only 30 people max to pray, while of course men are the good ones, they take more space and can visit anytime during the day.

 

Okay, I might understand all the seperation of men & women in daily life, but seriously, what's wrong with having enough space to pray!!

Okay, I'm tired now, gotta go.

 

 

...Ania